I just want to live on my own." I started to walk, wishing that I could just live by myself.
The dark, shining skyscrapers were far, far away.
-Far, far away. In the dream from which I escaped
I found the answer I wanted.
Someone. I breathed silently, afraid to trust, afraid to be betrayed.
The next thing I knew, I couldn't even remember what love looked like, what color it was.
I can't stop. I can't go back. In a basket with a missing key.
I've been waiting for so long...
-I wish I could forget... everything.
I wish I could forget.
I'd forget this darkness.
Memories of that day.
I still hold on to the days that I can't wake up from.
To the transformation that ties us together...
How could I
I don't want to forget anything else.
My heart stops breathing
In a sleep that never fades away
in a landscape that passes away
Why?
My heart, still open and transparent
I write down the sound of my pulse
to keep it from cooling down
not to fade away.
I can only gasp for breath.
I just want to be reborn... and that day in my life...
How many years ago was it that I was living forward with my chest out?
I feel like I'm going crazy when I spit without being able to remember.
I want to go back, I can't go back, I can't go back, I can't go back.
That's all I can think about.
I've been thinking about it. I've been hoping.
I'm sure I'm not expecting it.
So why? Why? Why?
All you do is sing about the past.
The future is full of hope and the sky is blue.
With experiences that will never disappear.
And yet the sun is so cold because you want to die?
Tell me.
I've been searching for the image of you that won't disappear no matter how long it takes.
How long have I chosen to 'forget it all'? and choose to run away?
How long have I closed the door saying, "I'm going to live my life without hurting anyone." and closed the door.
When did you stop looking to the past and stop asking for anything?
I'm so confused with memories that I want to erase.
Even if tomorrow is dyed with sunshine
If I can't move on forever, it may not matter to me.
If I could just run away to a skyscraper floating in a dream
I wonder if I could breathe and conquer without ever remembering again
I don't want to remember anymore, I want to forget.
There's no value in the scenery that flickers and disappears
I hold on to the days that have not yet awakened
In a bounded metamorphosis...
Why?
I don't want to feel anything anymore
My heart stops breathing
And the pain that lingers in my chest is taken away
The hollow that won't be filled.
Why?
All I'm feeding on is oxygen.
The diary that won't go cold, that can't be erased.
the shadowy figure shining through the window
the light shuts in and out
like a scream that breaks your head
fear rushes in
-the night is still long.
Don't let it get cold
Don't let it fade away
I only breathe softly.