歌手: 赤崎ティナ
配信/発売日:2023/11/20
作詞:赤崎ティナ
作曲:赤崎ティナ
異変を感じた数年前
体に大きなしこり
それでも病院にいかない日々
見て見ぬ振りして過ごす
異変を感じて数ヶ月
いきなり痛みが走り
急いで受診 乳腺外科へ結果はあり得ぬ悪性
5年の生存は難しい
お医者様に一言告げられて
泣き崩れる僕にママは言う
『絶対に負けないから』
僕のママは誰よりも強い
それでも力尽きた
僕を心配させぬ様にと頭を撫でてくれた
儚いほどに過去になるよ
終わりなんて信じない
景色を止めて 時間をとめて たった一度だけでも
休むまもなく抗がん剤
掴めば抜ける髪の毛
私が娘だと腹をくくり
ママにバリカンをあてた
なんとか手術可能になり
それに全てを託して
目覚めた時のママの一言
『女性じゃないみたいだね』
手術をしたのに皮膚への転移
背中はえぐれて辛い消毒
少し当たるだけで血が流れ
そのたびに輸血をした
もう薬がない 治療出来ない
ママに黙り緩和移行
涙をこらえ笑顔で看病
たったひとつできたこと
骨への転移結果が届き
見せずに丸めて捨てた
最後の夜もがんばったねとままを尊敬したよ
ママが旅立ってそれからは
孤独と自殺の狭間
毎年命日がちかづくたび
闘病期が蘇る
ママとパパが残した財産
体をナイフで切って
後悔してはごめんなさいと
毎晩泣いていたんだ
ふとした時感じるママの声
私の分まで生き抜いて
息を引き取った直後の涙
それが最後の伝えかな
あの日の記憶忘れないよ
喪主をちゃんと務めた日
祭壇全てガーベラの花
ママの写真が輝く
儚いほどに過去になるよ
終わりなんて信じない
景色を止めて 時間をとめて たった一度だけでも
いつものように笑っててよ
そばにいてくれた日々
降り積もる雪流れる涙輝くママの笑顔
履かないほどに過去になるよ
終わりなんて信じない
景色を止めて 時間をとめて たった一度だけでも
安心してね覚えてるよ
ママの偉大な存在
2人の絆 守り抜くから約束の親孝行
感謝止まらぬ大きな愛
産んでくれてありがとう
今更だけど謝らないと
荒れてた反抗期
素直になって伝えたかった
心から愛してる
『もう大丈夫』ママの分まで
最後まで生きるから世界にひとつだけの
輝くダイヤモンド
僕の胸で安らかに
ihen wo kan zi ta kazutosi zen
karada ni oo kina sikori
sore demo byouin ni ika nai hibi
mi te mi nu hu ri si te su gosu
ihen wo kan zi te suu kagetu
ikinari ita mi ga hasi ri
iso i de zyusin nyuusen geka he kekka ha ari e nu akusei
5 nen no seizon ha muzuka sii
o isya sama ni hitokoto tu ge rare te
na ki kuzu reru boku ni mama ha i u
『 zettai ni ma ke nai kara 』
boku no mama ha dare yori mo tuyo i
sore demo tikaratu ki ta
boku wo sinpai sa se nu you ni to atama wo na de te kure ta
hakana i hodo ni kako ni naru yo
o wari nante sin zi nai
gesiki wo to me te zikan wo tome te tatta itido dake demo
yasu mu mamonaku kou gan zai
tuka me ba nu keru kami no ke
watasi ga musume da to hara wo kukuri
mama ni barikan wo ate ta
na n toka syuzyutu kanou ni nari
sore ni sube te wo taku si te
meza me ta toki no mama no hitokoto
『 zyosei zya nai mitai da ne 』
syuzyutu wo si ta noni hihu he no teni
senaka ha egu re te kara i syoudoku
suko si a taru dake de ti ga naga re
sono tabi ni yuketu wo si ta
mou kusuri ga nai tiryou deki nai
mama ni dama ri kanwa ikou
namida wo korae egao de kanbyou
tatta hitotu deki ta koto
hone he no teni kekka ga todo ki
mi se zu ni maru me te su te ta
saigo no yoru mo ganbaxtu ta ne to mama wo sonkei si ta yo
mama ga tabida xtu te sore kara ha
kodoku to zisatu no hazama
maitosi meiniti gati ka zuku tabi
toubyou ki ga yomigae ru
mama to papa ga noko si ta zaisan
karada wo naihu de ki xtu te
koukai si te ha gomennasai to
maiban na i te itan da
hutosita toki kan ziru mama no koe
watasi no bun made i ki nu i te
iki wo hi ki to xtu ta tyokugo no namida
sore ga saigo no tuta e ka na
ano hi no kioku wasu re nai yo
mosyu wo tyanto tuto me ta hi
saidan sube te ga-bera no hana
mama no syasin ga kagaya ku
hakana i hodo ni kako ni naru yo
o wari nante sin zi nai
gesiki wo to me te zikan wo tome te tatta itido dake demo
itumo no you ni wara xtu te teyo
soba ni i te kure ta hibi
hu ri tu moru yuki naga reru namida kagaya ku mama no egao
ha ka nai hodo ni kako ni naru yo
o wari nante sin zi nai
gesiki wo to me te zikan wo tome te tatta itido dake demo
ansin si te ne obo e teru yo
mama no idai na sonzai
2 nin no kizuna mamo ri nu ku kara yakusoku no oyakoukou
kansya to mara nu oo kina ai
u n de kure te arigatou
imasara da kedo ayama ra nai to
a re te ta hankouki
sunao ni naxtu te tuta e takaxtu ta
kokoro kara ai si teru
『 mou daizyoubu 』 mama no bun made
saigo made i kiru kara sekai ni hitotu dake no
kagaya ku daiyamondo
boku no mune de yasu raka ni
Feel strange a few years ago
There is a big lump on my body.
Still don't go to the hospital every day.
Turn a blind eye to it
Feel strange for months
The pain suddenly struck.
See a doctor quickly. Breast surgery may have a malignant result.
It's hard to survive for five years
Ask the doctor to say a word.
Mother said to me crying loudly
"Because you will never lose."
My mother is better than anyone.
Still, I'm exhausted.
He stroked my head so as not to worry me.
Will be a thing of the past
I don't believe it's over
Stop the scenery, stop the time, even if it is only once.
Anticancer agent
Hair that falls off as soon as you catch it.
When I was a daughter, I would laugh.
Sent a tweet to mom.
We can finally operate.
Entrust everything to that
A word from my mother when I woke up
"It doesn't seem to be a woman."
Obviously, it was transferred to the skin after surgery.
The back was cut off and painfully disinfected.
A slight touch will bleed.
Blood transfusion every time.
There is no medicine, and there is no treatment.
Keep silent to your mother and ease the transition
Holding back tears, smiling and nursing patients.
Only accomplished one thing.
You'll get the result of transferring to the bone
Get together and throw it away without showing it to anyone.
I respect him and say that he worked hard last night.
Mom set off, and after that,
Between loneliness and suicide
Every year approaches the anniversary of death.
Wake up during the fight
The property left by mom and dad
Cut the body with a knife
Regret saying sorry
I cry every night.
Suddenly I felt my mother's voice
Live to my share
Tears after dying
That's the last message, isn't it
I won't forget the memory of that day.
Do a good job of mourning the Lord
The altars are all flowers of Gabella.
Mom's photo sparkles.
Will be a thing of the past
I don't believe it's over
Stop the scenery, stop the time, even if it is only once.
Laugh as usual
Be by my side every day
Tears shed by accumulated snow, shining mother's smile.
Will be a thing of the past to the point where you can't wear it.
I don't believe it's over
Stop the scenery, stop the time, even if it is only once.
Don't worry, I'll remember it.
Mom's great existence
Because we have to stick to the fetters of the two, we have agreed on filial piety.
Appreciated love
Thank you for giving birth to me
At this point, I have to apologize
A barren period of resistance
I want to tell you frankly.
Love from the bottom of my heart
It's okay. Even my mother has a share.
Because you want to live to the end, it is the only one in the world.
Sparkling diamond
Rest in peace in my arms.