こはならむ – 生きるを選んだ私へ 歌詞 ( Lyrics)

なつかしい音
なつかしい匂い
なつかしい景色
蘇るトラウマ
見たくない顔
聞きたくない声
許せない人たち
もう行けなくなっちゃった、あの駅

暗い「人目が怖いの」
そんな記憶　あいして生きる

透明なまま終わっていきなよ
私はもうきっと大丈夫
嫌い泣きたいも今振り返れば
泡と消える刹那
私見て下を見た気でいなよ　そのまま
消えてしまいたいと願ったような夜に
笑ってられてるよ　永遠に消えないんだよ

狭い世界で
くだらない談に怯えてる私
霞んで歪んだ脳　明白な病
傷跡は消えないまま
責任の所在は？
あの日の子供が泣くのだ
今でも

今日ものうのう生きている
永世罪人共に問う
替えの効かないもの、
戻らないものに手を出した自覚はある？
許せぬ過去を睨んでも仕方ない、って
言葉は理解するが
時に解決を促させる
卑劣さに
愚劣さに
反吐が出る
反吐が出る
「忘れろ」も言葉のナイフだ
私は今日も立っている
私は今日も歌っている

透明なまま終わっていきなよ
私はもう大丈夫
嫌い泣きたいも今振り返れば
私を生かすのは私なのだ

透明なまま終わっていきなよ
私はもう、もう大丈夫
嫌い泣きたいも今振り返れば
決して消えぬ「愛」か
私見て下を見た気でいなよ　そのまま
消えてしまいたいと願ったような夜に
笑っているんだよ

笑っているんだよ
笑っているんだよ

natukasii oto
natukasii nio i
natukasii kesiki
yomigae ru torauma
mi taku nai kao
ki ki taku nai koe
yuru se nai hito tati
mou i ke naku naxtu tyaxtu ta 、 ano eki

kura i 「 hitome ga kowa i no 」
sonna kioku 　 aisi te i kiru

toumei na mama o waxtu te iki na yo
watasi ha mou kitto daizyoubu
kira i na ki tai mo ima hu ri kae re ba
awa to ki eru setuna
watasi mi te sita wo mi ta ki de ina yo 　 sonomama
ki e te simai tai to nega xtu ta you na yoru ni
wara xtu te rare teru yo 　 eien ni ki e nai n da yo

sema i sekai de
kudaranai dan ni obi e teru watasi
kasu n de yuga n da nou 　 meihaku na yamai
kizuato ha ki e nai mama
sekinin no syozai ha ？
ano hi no kodomo ga na ku no da
ima demo

kyou mo nounou i ki te iru
eisei zainin tomo ni to u
ga e no ki ka nai mono 、
modo ra nai mono ni te wo da si ta zikaku ha aru ？
yuru se nu kako wo neme n demo sikata nai 、 tte
kotoba ha rikai suru ga
zi ni kaiketu wo unaga sa seru
hiretu sa ni
guretu sa ni
hedo ga de ru
hedo ga de ru
「 wasu rero 」 mo kotoba no naihu da
watasi ha kyou mo ta xtu te iru
watasi ha kyou mo uta xtu te iru

toumei na mama o waxtu te iki na yo
watasi ha mou daizyoubu
kira i na ki tai mo ima hu ri kae re ba
watasi wo i kasu no ha watasi na no da

toumei na mama o waxtu te iki na yo
watasi ha mou 、 mou daizyoubu
kira i na ki tai mo ima hu ri kae re ba
kextu site ki e nu 「 ai 」 ka
watasi mi te sita wo mi ta ki de ina yo 　 sonomama
ki e te simai tai to nega xtu ta you na yoru ni
wara xtu te iru n da yo

wara xtu te iru n da yo
wara xtu te iru n da yo

Nostalgic sounds
Nostalgic smells
Nostalgic sights
Traumas that come back to life
Faces you don't want to see
Voices you don't want to hear
People I cannot forgive
That station I can't go to anymore

The dark "I'm afraid of being seen"
I live in love with those memories

Let it end in transparency
I'm sure I'll be fine now
I hate to cry, but now that I look back
A moment that fades away with a bubble
Look at me and think you've looked down, just like that
On the night when you wish you could disappear
I'm still being laughed at, it won't disappear forever

In the small world
I'm the one who's frightened by trivial talks
Hazy, distorted brain, a clear disease
The scars will never go away
Where's the blame?
The child of that day cries
Even now

Today, they live on as if they were alive
I ask these eternal sinners
Do you realize that you have messed with something that cannot be replaced
that cannot be replaced, that cannot be brought back?
You say there's no point in dwelling on the unforgivable past.
I understand what you're saying.
But sometimes we are urged to resolve
To the vileness.
The stupidity of it.
It's repugnant.
Repulsive.
Forget it is a knife of words
I'm standing today
I'm singing today

Let it end in transparency
I'm okay now
I hate to cry, but now that I look back
It's me who keeps me alive

Let it end in transparency
I'm already okay now
I hate and want to cry, but now that I look back
Is it love that never fades away?
Look at me and think you're looking down, keep it up
On a night when you wish you could disappear
I'm smiling

I'm smiling
I'm smiling