OSTER project – 烏合 歌詞 ( Lyrics)

ちっぽけな自分を満たす為なら
世界は小さな箱の中だけで良かった
色褪せた特別という言葉さえ
呪いになっても手放せないまま

よくできました
頭を撫でられて喜んだ
それだけのこと
相対評価　隣よりも
ちょっと出来が良かっただけ
類い稀なき
数十年に一人の逸材
世界の広ささえも知らない
大人達の無責任な品評

掃いて捨てるほどの才能の中
取るに足らない色は濁っていくだけ
埃被った賛辞で心燃やして
ギラついた目で居場所探した

自尊心　虚栄心
焼き尽くし余りある
こじ開けられた世界の眩しさが
劣等感　焦燥感
煽り立てて突きつける
結論は何者でもない僕に
世界は興味がない

まやかしでも無邪気に
思い上がれていた
あの頃の方が幸せなんて
口にするほど"今"が朽ち果てていく

頑張らなくてもいい理由探して
立ち止まった分だけ取り残されて
優しいだけの言葉に甘えたとして
満たせるのは一瞬の渇き
小さなグラスに溢れたプライド
音を立て滴る日々よ

金輪際もう一切
満たされることはない
まるで底の抜けたバケツみたいだ
喪失感　充実感
何を以って決まるのか
分からないまま過ぎゆく時間が
侵食する心の肌

努力に基づく未来
その途中に立つ数多の墓標を横目に
まだ歩き続けるのか
明日さえ見えないまま

愛するより愛されてみたかった
多分そんな単純なことだと
認める勇気さえなかった僕に
答えなど見つけられない

焦燥も本能の創造する感情ならば
この苦しみにはどんな
意味があるのでしょうか
特別は特別じゃ無くなってもまだ
腹の底蠢いて
金輪際もう一切
満たされることのない
こじ開けられた眩し過ぎる世界で
劣等感　焦燥感
手懐けても暴れ出す
平凡で何者でもない僕に
世界は微笑まない

tippoke na zibun wo mi tasu tame nara
sekai ha tii sana hako no naka dake de yo kaxtu ta
iroa se ta tokubetu to iu kotoba sae
noro i ni naxtu te mo tebana se nai mama

yoku deki masi ta
atama wo na de rare te yoroko n da
soredake no koto
soutaihyouka 　 tonari yori mo
tyotto deki ga yo kaxtu ta dake
tagu i mare naki
数十 nen ni hitori no ituzai
sekai no hiro sa sae mo si ra nai
otona tati no musekinin na hinpyou

ha i te su teru hodo no sainou no naka
to runi ta ranai iro ha nigo xtu te iku dake
hokori koumu xtu ta sanzi de kokoro mo yasi te
gira tui ta me de ibasyo saga si ta

zisonsin 　 kyoeisin
ya ki tu kusi ama riaru
kozi a ke rare ta sekai no mabu si sa ga
rettoukan 　 syousoukan
ao ri ta te te tu kitukeru
keturon ha nanimono demo nai boku ni
sekai ha kyoumi ga nai

mayakasi demo muzyaki ni
omo i a ga re te i ta
ano koro no hou ga siawa se nante
kuti ni suru hodo & # 34 ; ima & # 34 ; ga ku ti ha te te iku

ganba ra naku te mo ii riyuu saga si te
ta ti do maxtu ta bun dake to ri noko sa re te
yasa sii dake no kotoba ni ama e ta to si te
mi ta seru no ha issyun no kawa ki
tii sana gurasu ni ahu re ta puraido
on wo ta te sitata ru hibi yo

konrinzai mou issai
mi tasa reru koto ha nai
marude soko no nu ke ta baketu mitai da
sousitukan 　 zyuuzitukan
nani wo mo tte ki maru no ka
wa kara nai mama su giyuku zikan ga
sinsyoku suru kokoro no hada

doryoku ni moto zuku mirai
sono to naka ni ta tu amata no bohyou wo yokome ni
mada aru ki tuzu keru no ka
asita sae mi e nai mama

ai suru yori ai sa re te mi takaxtu ta
tabun sonna tanzyun na koto da to
mito meru yuuki sae nakaxtu ta boku ni
kota e nado mi tuke rare nai

syousou mo honnou no souzou suru kanzyou nara ba
kono kuru simi ni ha donna
imi ga aru no desyo u ka
tokubetu ha tokubetu zya na kunaxtu te mo mada
hara no soko ugome i te
konrinzai mou issai
mi tasa reru koto no nai
kozi a ke rare ta mabu si su giru sekai de
rettoukan 　 syousoukan
tenazu ke te mo aba re da su
heibon de nanimono demo nai boku ni
sekai ha hohoe ma nai

In order to satisfy my small self
If only the world were in a small box.
Even the faded word special.
Even if it becomes a curse, I can't let it go.

Well done
I'm glad to be touched on the head.
that's all
Relative evaluation neighbor
Just do it better.
A rare sound
A once-in-a-decade wizard
I don't even know the area of the world
The irresponsible evaluation of adults.

Among the talents that have disappeared.
Tiny colors will only become cloudy.
Be overwhelmed by dusty praise.
Looking for a place to live with sparkling eyes

Self-esteem, vanity
There's something left over from the roast.
The dizziness of the pried open world
Sense of inferiority and anxiety
Fan the flames to attack.
The conclusion is that for me who has nothing.
The world is not interested.

Even if it's a lie, be innocent.
think oneself terrific
Happier at that time.
Talk more and more & # 034; Now&# 034; Life gradually decays.

Find a reason not to work hard.
Only the part that stops is left.
If you just rely on tenderness.
Satisfaction is a momentary thirst.
Full of self-esteem in a small glass
It's ticking every day

complete with everything needed
Will not be satisfied
It's like a bucket with a bottom.
Sense of loss and fulfillment
By what?
Unconsciously past time.
Erosion of the soul skin

Future based on efforts
He squinted at many tomb markers standing on the way.
Are you still going?
Even tomorrow can't be seen.

Want to be loved more than love me.
Maybe it's that simple.
Yeah, I don't even have the courage to admit it
Can't find the answer

If anxiety is also an instinctive emotion.
What's in this pain
Does it make sense?
Not even if it's not special anymore
The harder one tries to conceal a thing, the more it attracts attention
complete with everything needed
Unsatisfactory
In a world that is too dazzling to be pried open
Sense of inferiority and anxiety
Even if you let go, you should fool around.
For the ordinary me.
The world won't smile.